Some fucking cruise ship junkie portbelly loser was trying to get me to aid and abet him in drunk driving by pumping his own gas for him. Took everything in my power not to codeswitch from after talking to them and say shit like ‘im not scared of him coming back, im pretty sure even a baby seal can outrun him’ or ‘if he dies driving hone then frankly the beer companies did the world a favor’.

I take it for granted just how ruthless and cutthroat the internet has made me. But thats just the way I want to talk.

I think posting a lot does rewire your mind in ways that arent as obvious. I want to say stuff like that because it reflects the impact swinging of how I think. Its not that I think it will make me more popular but that I actually reflects my form of ambiguated ‘evilthought’ that needs to be spoken and smiled at to move on from. This is sort of the social code of the gothic for me. You actually have to sit down and to an extent amuse yourself about the goblin market in order to deal with it.

I can neither talk like that at my work or in hookups or in these millennial anarchist wholesomeness reigns spaces, or at the committees or anywhere. Theres a hegemony on every level against the poster. The poster has no recourse, the speaker is all mighty. And god if a bird flew down and ripped out the speakers tongue one day I dont think a lot of us would see that as tragic.

@Erato_Heti i feel the same in some ways, namely that there are a lot of worlds that have become insanely sanitized and speak-no-evil in an extremely toxic way . but i also can't help but look at your argument about speaking and smiling at the "evilthought" and see a slight similarity to "locker room talk" types of arguments that certain men make, and consider at the unique intensity of violence in the internet as well; my takeaway from these is that the "evilthought" is indeed evil and when shared has the potential to propagate.

i don't have a good answer to either of these issues. i think [the speaker's sanitizing everything and suppressing the void] and [proliferating the poster's violent speech] are sort of both toxic . honestly the truest answer is probably that things in moderation is good but i find that unsatisfying

@ikeWren its just something thats been on my mind, I do thing I have some room to actually let loose a bit in this department but if anything I think it makes things too chummy. at the same time I dont really have any inherent issue with locker room talk. I think it is actually fine for people to process their more disturbed sense of mind somewhere out of typical eyes and ears.