I need to learn more songs I need to be able to play songs

guitar and piano maybe if I lock in I'll be able to sing at the same time

reading sheet music is good obviously but maybe I shoudl just look at those midi waterfall piano tutorials lmao I cannot sightread that fast ... or get the timings right ...

well, piano has always been a struggle for me I can't really coordinate both hands at the same time like at all

I'm okay with not being as good of a musician as other people. my worth is decided not by my achievements in comparison to the achievements of someone else. but I'll be sad if I can't do something that makes me happy, do art in a way that means something to me. but I have not reached my full potential for that. maybe saying something like that is a ... misnomer? your capacity grows as your capacity grows. you just need to keep at it. does that make sense, at all?

I want to be as good as I want to be.