figuring out shit about myself that i need to work on kinda night ig

a lot of it is that on some level ive been sorting my fellow trans women into “the good ones” and “the bad ones”

ig i kinda do this with other groups of people but i dont think its good

@lz I sort trans women into "Stfu" or "My Friend Yay" or "Miscellaneous" do you think this is a good system or do I also need to work on that

@sierra i mean i think the problem wasnt that i hust didnt like them so much as i was like “your gender presentation is bad”

@sierra also like, im one to talk when i boymode. thse girls might have atrocious taste but at least theyre trying something

@lz genius: sort them into “I don’t like you because your gender presentation is bad” … yol thank me later

@sierra and theres also the issue of im miserable so i get mad at others who are having fun with it

@lz @sierra it's a tough thing to get over honestly. I get bitter over not being able to present at all due to brainworms and muh job. But idk life's too short to hate. Not that I follow that advice but it's good advice

@lz dark mode Lizzie activate

@lz Imo it's a lot better to sort them into "Girls I like" and "B*tches I can't stand" I've noticed girls I rlly dnt get along with are often pathological liars or gossips but like given the ways trans girls often have to grow up in hostile conditions it often makes perfect sense when someones full of shit cause they developed it as a survival stratergy and then it just highlights that my desire for loyalty and honesty comes from being ruthlessly pursued and is kinda actually the same thing just a different end of the spectrum.

@Jazzcraft this seems fair yeah. a lot of people i dont like for the better (albeit still vibes) reasons are potentially a big problem