why do i feel like everyone suddenly hates me

@zvava I think because you have disorders that make yoiu paranoid and such

@zvava I don't hate u, i think ur cool and epic

@gotrans@void.lgbt i know you don't, and if i ask my friends i know they'd be like "of course not i could never hate sophia". despite being reassured this several times over by everyone im so stuck in my own head that without constant reassurance i eventually regress to imagining public opinion of sophia being negative since i never run out of criticisms hatred of myself

@sierra@kill-corporations.enterprises that'd explain the shadow creatures

@zvava fake news made by the bipolar disorder

@zvava @gotrans normal cptsd behavior

@zvava @gotrans i got over that but at social events if it gets even a little stressful i start wanting to curl up in someone’s lap just to stop feeling horribly alone. then it’s dissociate or cry